school pool from necronym by oux

she goes to church with a purse full of teeth
i haven't slept in my own head in a week
my consciousness keeps on playing hide and seek with me
my glasses filled with optimistic condensation
i fill my room with half-empty conversations
today's survival is no cause for celebration
but i drink anyway

pink noise, quiet eyes

at the school pool where i learned how to drown
they had to tie me to my guilt to weigh me down
at the school pool where i learned how to drown
swam into the deep end thinking
maybe i'm better off sinking anyway

keep the blinds drawn, make the sun crawl on the ceiling
need a second opinion, oh please, tell me how i'm feeling
keep tabs on all my scabs to make sure that i'm healing
well enough for you

at the school pool where i learned how to drown
they had to tie me to my guilt to weigh me down
at the school pool where i learned how to drown
swam into the deep end thinking
maybe i'm better off sinking anyway, anyway

i saw you in the corner of my room
pulling out my bones one by one
rearranged them to a mannequin
every inch of flesh for a pound of wax
i retract every loving act, every sacred pact
we share blood but i'd distill mine to get it out

at the school pool where i learned how to drown
they had to tie me to my guilt to weigh me down
at the school pool where i learned how to drown
swam into the deep end thinking
maybe i'm better off

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